I just wanted to say. I never forgot you guys. If you don't know who this is, then that time has well beyond passed for me to make amends. We once were the closest of friends, and shifting through an old email account last night, it all came back. Will I appear again? No. Probably not. Its been almost 4 years now. In fact I don't think you even use this account anymore. Regardless, I want you all to know I'm sorry. I abandoned my friends for someone who never even loved me in the end. Now as far as I know, all the friends I had are dead. Trying to find proof of their continued existence is like chasing smoke through the mist.
You all affected my life more then you'll ever know. Yet I treated you like shit in the end. I treated you all like shit and now, as I sit here at my desk after endless nightmares. I realize what I did.
I'm sorry for sacrificing a friendship. I hope in the end I learn from my mistakes, and I hope all of you are happy. I know I'm not, but hopefully I can fix that some day soon. At least I have my memories of all of you.
If by some hand of fate we meet again, then I'll thank god for that. However, if we never meet in this life time, I hope you can forgive me for hurting you all. I hope then, in that case, we can someday meet in the beyond, whatever it may be. God, Buddha, Xenu, whatever your creed now, may the lord of it bless you.
--Venin Grayback, Aka T. L. War
Ps:If you really wish to try...I cant guarantee I'll respond. Veningrayback@hotmail.com I'd....just like to say I'm sorry. In person. Or at least over the internet. If not, then thank you Luna, for all the memories, that I'll cherish for my life.